Your Smile

The poem you read was made because it's really how I feel.

I love to make people smile/laugh or just at LEAST feel better...because it makes feel worth something...

Most of my family look at me or shun me, and this is what they tell me, and these words nag me every damn day..

"You're not fit for this world. You're grades are low, you're mom left you as a child... You're childhood friend that you haven't heard from in 7 years has killed himself, and you weren't there... You should be ashamed to walk this earth, the only reason you have friends is because they pity you..."

First of all I want to say "R.I.P., Aaron 18yrs..."
He was four years older than me, but I've known him for 7 years and then he had to move to the west coast... I recently came in contact with him, but his parents picked up the phone and said that he had killed himself...

For the record, my dad and step mom, don't think that about me... So don't ever blame things on them... I thank God for them..

Anyway...
That is why it is so important to me that people feel happy..
I NEVER want them to feel what I'm feeling...

...that's all I have to say..

Poem (c) ~DockMadchen